The other souls you lug around are just as fake as you are. “You don’t pass shit,” she finished, using her own voice again, “You are a rock, rolling downhill. “I pass judgements based on other people’s opinions,” she said, doing a deliberately shitty impression of my voice. Your position is logically incoherent in a way that mine isn’t.” “I pass judgements based on other people’s opinions,” I said, slowly, “and that’s fine because I’m not out here claiming that other people aren’t real. There had to be a way to, it wasn’t possible that. “I’m not-“ I paused, nearly choking with sheer fucking anger. “You do it all the time, but let’s pretend your choices are all driven by sweet reason.” If I stopped to contemplate the future, if I sought to make another plan or consider the consequences of my actions then I’d drown in grief. Spite seemed my only refuge, and I threw myself into it. “An old, stupid, barbaric custom that the world has looked past?” I snarled. Think of it like divining with entrails, if that helps any.” “Kind of,” she said, waving an idle hand, “But obviously I’m not trying to pretend that they are real, or that they matter. Calm had escaped me during the slaughter, and it was all I could do not to break down in tears. I hated that my voice got shrill, near the end of that. “You want my…passengers, let’s call them, to pass judgement on you? For you?” If you didn’t, then, well, no harm no foul?įorce may rule the world, but it never ruled you. If you enjoyed this, then I’ve succeeded. You were the purpose of all this, my goal all along. The real people I have to thank are the great anonymous audience. The site lets you know that people are visiting, but only discussion, commentary and feedback let me know that folks cared. Both those who gave me support, and those who gave me the gears. Rationally Writing, Handsome Voices? Thanks so much for putting your content out there.īeyond that, there’s the commenters. Podcasting? For web fiction writers? That’s a thing? I love it. I’ve always struggled to keep to my own meager update schedule, and watching other people crush much rougher ones was nothing short of inspiring. It made me smile to finish up at the same time as the sequel to the thing that started my own work. The last thing I wanted to do was thank y’all, so I should probably get on with that.Ī huge thanks has to go out to the other web serial writers. This is just me and whatever audience the internet brings my way. The time’s all blocked out to wrestle with thousands of words, but there’s no need. To know that this was it, I was finally going to make my last update, let TFD take on its last shape. It was even an odd feeling to sit down to write this. Some concepts were ennobled by the experience, others got way cringier. Dreams that would ordinarily flash past pressed to leave lasting impressions on some digital page. It’s genuinely, profoundly strange to see your mind exposed like that. There was nothing stopping me, so I googled up how to get a WordPress site, entered my credit card and within a week or two I was off and running.Īfter that it was simply a matter of posting updates, one after another, and the story wound along like a strange clock, characters appearing, speaking their brief pieces, and then vanishing back into the bin. There was no one to ask permission from, and if you screwed it up it wasn’t like the internet would run out of space.Īll my excuses kind of went away. You could write your own superhero story and put it on a website and people could read it. It had somehow never occurred to me that you could just…do that. I was surfing the internet, and somehow I ended up reading Worm. ![]() I finished last week, so I spent approximately four and a half years on this. ![]() I started writing The Fifth Defiance in November, 2015. It feels very strange to finally write this post. I think it is a law of nature that reading anything an author writes about their work will make you like it less, so you’ll probably get more out of my story if you read it before hearing me out. Anyone just getting here, I’d like to beg you to read the serial before you read on.
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